I've always been asked when I would come home. And I always respond "when I'm ready."
Well, I was ready. And on Friday, may 9th, I came back. I had more plans. I didn't do everything I wanted... But I was ready. I normally would beat myself up about this. Or that. Or anything. But I'm not who I once was.
It's never easy leaving, or easy coming back. But I don't feel like I'm quitting or anything. I'm 26 and moving back in with my mom. Why?
She needs me.
We need each other. It's okay to admit to these things at times, too. I'll take off again one day, I know I can't be in this town forever but I'll enjoy it for now.
There's bigger and better things for me in the future but my current has me here and I'm going to enjoy it.
3 people knew I was coming back. And I wanted to surprise the people usually in on my surprises. It feels wonderful to be surrounded by these people again, and I feel so rejuvenated as well.
I feel like I'm recovering, not that I was ever ill. There's a lot to deal with coming back, and I worry that maybe finally the loss of my father will show it's toll on me, or maybe not. Who knows?
What I do know is I'm happy to be back. I feel incredibly blessed with my life and make sure not to take it for granted. I'm constantly learning and re-learning what it means to be family. A concept that I always struggled to understand. But part of family is being there.
And I am. Grandma is 87 now, and I love her to bits. I look forward to making my way out to her home as often as possible... It will help once I get my license renewed as well.
Her reaction when I surprised her (and my mom's) on Mother's Day was worth the struggle it took me to get back. I didn't throw in the towel, I just took a detour.
I encourage each and every one of you to contact your family. And often. Of many regrets in life, putting anyone over them always ranks highest. People come and go, but family, well, you can't choose that. You're kind of stuck with them, for lack of a better word haha. That's a terrible note to end on so I'll just leave pictures and say I love you all.